| "Make new friends, but keep the old; one is silver and the other is gold" |
[Oct. 13th, 2008|09:46 am] |
Did you know the above quote is a Girl Scout lyric?
I'm done hanging out with a lot of people. I think its time for a big change. I'm just not feeling it anymore. Most of the people I used to hang out with have disappeared for one reason or another. School is probably the most influential factor but it's even if there was no school I still wouldn't want to hang out with these people. Everything changes, and I'm kind of excited for whats next.
Time to enjoy a little R&R and sleep my Monday away. I love having only one class and no work on Monday. |
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| "I'm not a biter. I'm a writer for myself and others." |
[Oct. 6th, 2008|03:41 am] |
So I went to the free Voter Registration rally hosted by Jay Z. I had to go to training for On The Border so I was very frantic that I might miss this really awesome opportunity to see an artist I really like. I was also worried since it was a free concert, a lack of interest might occur on the production part and it might have been a big cop-out. I was very wrong. I missed the beginning which apparently included Wyclef Jean singing Bob Marley and something with Pitbull and some Senator? But I made it right when Jay Z started his set.
What an amazing experience. Ive never actually witnessed a hip hop concert of any type, and my appreciation of hip hop really emerged late at the end of highschool, beginning of college. Im not going to talk about my dedication as a fan to any artist or my knowledge on the culture. I wish I knew more about it but I do like it, and Jay Z. I think it is difficult to not like Jay Z with the major influence hes had and the large icon he's become for his musical talent.
His set was incredible. Every song I wanted to hear. He even pulled out his verse to Swagger Like Us and his A Milli remix "A Billi".
He made an awesome reference to the republican party vice presidential candidate as well. He said something along the lines of not wanting to say too much or he'd get into trouble but he hinted there's another side to this election. Another person. "Not the old guy". Then laughed and did 99 problems. Such a nice little segment.
Then the end was snippets of certain songs as he laughed asking us which one we wanted to end with. Lucifer's intro started and everyone went ridiculous but he changed it and went "Too hardcore". He played Rick Ross's Hustlin chorus and I Put On, (cause 'miami puts on for their city wasssup'). He teased a little Hello Brooklyn but finally played Encore to end the show on such a positive note. He didnt ask us to vote for Barack Obama, he just asked us to vote. But he threw in a line in one song about the world being over if Barack Obama aint the next president. I mean, I know who I'm voting for.
I really enjoyed myself, as you might be able to tell by the large post. I wish I could see him again, but this free thing was the reason I even got to. I cant dish out stacks to see Jay Z, but if I had that kind of money I would. He really keeps a crowd alive. SOO GOOD.
Obama 08!
--Valerie bought me an Obama shirt too. Rep the Democratic candidate. |
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| "I'm playing this one pretty close to the chest" |
[Oct. 1st, 2008|02:25 am] |
She will be responsible and capable of maintaining herself in times of need. If she indulges in the same vices as I, she will know her limits and be able to enjoy them for the simplicities they are. She will have an open mind to the world and want to learn new things without needing an interest in the topic. She will not need each day to be an adventure. She will make me want to be a better person. She will encourage me, though this has never been a problem. She will truly like me for me, and not the idea of me or the idea of what I could represent. She will not be anti-family. She will not try to impress me, because being herself will be impressive enough and she will know this. She will have confidence, but not to the point that I wont even show up on her radar. She will bring me down to her level and that level will be peaceful. She will not judge my past or constantly mention people from it that deserve to be left in it. She will like my friends, and can maintain herself in a group. She will like music and shows, but I refuse to the couple going to many shows. She will be confident enough to be straight up with me when problems emerge and take a firm stand for what she stands for. She will be honest. She will be beautiful. I'll find her one day. |
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| "To recreate us, all things go, all things go" |
[Sep. 17th, 2008|11:31 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | miami | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  artistic | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | sufjan stevens | ] |
So I'm unemployed again. It's nice for the moment but I know I'll find a new job in a couple days, before the end of September atleast...
It kind of shocks me that its the middle of September. I remember when it was still January. Ive gone through a lot of changes and moves and stuff. It kind of makes me wonder if all the stress made the time go by quicker? |
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| "Everybody has to know for themselves what they're capable of. " |
[Aug. 17th, 2008|05:38 pm] |
Ive separated myself from live journal for a long, long time. I just didn't have anything interesting going on in my life. I still don't. Well, no. Everything's changed. EVERYTHING is different now.
I moved back to Miami, and with a week left to decide, I still don't know what school I'm going to.
I worked at Supreme Smoothie for a good 2 months and now Ive got a better job at a call center for everyone's favorite cell phone company, TMobile.
I got a new car, a Yaris, which I have a love-hate relationship with.
I'm still struggling for some stability.
My name is Zackary Wallace, and I am a border-line alcoholic.
On a more recent note, there were some events that happened at my job on Friday that I wont disclose but I will be excited about. Truth be told, I'm just gonna go in Monday and forget it ever happened. But it was nice.
Lunchbox used to be a skinny kid. :\ |
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| "If I'd wanted all that computer game bullshit, I'd have stuck my dick in a Nintendo" |
[Mar. 8th, 2008|07:46 pm] |
Theres a bunch of stuff up with me, I just never update this thing:
- I am at a crossroads where I'm not sure if financially I can go to UF anymore, so I might be attempting to go to FIU or MDC Honors for Fall 08. I will be in Miami all summer taking summer courses to raise my GPA and hopefully find a decent job.
- I have a newfound appreciation to a huge amount of music I have discovered since moving.
- I have been traveling to Miami almost every weekend, and I'm not gonna make excuses for it. I really don't think I like Gainesville anymore. I wonder if I ever did :-\
- I have become affiliated with certain vices and subjects; I wish it weren't so but you live that way, you get classified that way.
- I hope everything works out for me and my future. Its a difficult path but only because there are so many "What ifs".
- I can't believe how well I have predicted how life after high school is. I really wish I would've wrote predictions like I did at the beginning of my senior year. All those predictions came true. Maybe there's something to my insight.
- I am getting a tattoo very soon. I dropped the idea to my parents, which were the only TRUE reason I ever debated it, and my mom was very much "do what you want its your life" while my dad said "if you get one, lets go and ill get one and ill pay." I'm not sure if it was a joke but now I'm really working hard on figuring out how exactly to incorporate my grandfather and my faith into a tattoo.
- I really hate dumb people. I have met so many ignorant, unintelligent people in college. People who have no aspiration to learn or think about anything other than whats on MTV or some shitty ass reality show.
I'm done now.
"Girl, I know you try..." |
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| war children |
[Feb. 25th, 2008|05:02 pm] |
its just a shot away.
its just a shot away.
i think that without hopes and dreams, one lives in quiet morose. |
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| 2008 |
[Jan. 6th, 2008|06:35 pm] |
Aint nothing great bout 08
cept 07s over and in the past |
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| New Year, New Time, New Riff, New Rhyme |
[Dec. 28th, 2007|04:48 am] |
Ive got me some resolutions to keep.
Including writing something every day, no matter what it is.
Including letting the past be the past and living for today and the future.
Including getting a job and raising my grades.
Including worrying less bout me and more bout my family.
Christmas was good. Good to be back in miami too.
I got some nice gifts.
Anyone got new years plans? |
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| You are not your job. You are not how much money you have in the bank. |
[Dec. 23rd, 2007|06:32 am] |
Now you see our dilemna.
I have a facebook, a myspace, a tumblr, a livejournal, an orkut, a gmail, a hotmail account, a school webmail, a vimeo account and a youtube account.
Social networks are taking over our lives.
Someone buy me a christmas gift. Im in a weird state. |
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| Like the samurai... |
[Dec. 9th, 2007|03:28 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  crappy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | silence | ] |
All good things come to an end.
All bad things linger on.
All sad things dwell for a while.
All happy things become memories.
Carter Webb shouldnt have been so selfless. People are never like that.
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| What have I become, my sweetest friend. Everyone I know goes away in the end |
[Dec. 8th, 2007|06:19 pm] |
Statement: I'm having a really good day today.
Understatement: I'm having a day today.
Exaggerated Statement: I'm having the best day today.
People should understand their usage of extremes and exaggerations. I'm doing better each and every day. End of November marked a point at which I just had to say "Am I content with where I'm headed? Is this the life I want to live? Do I really want to let it all change?". Funny thing is, we don't get to answer the questions we are presented sometimes. Nine times out of ten, the answers are given and we're along for the ride.
Ive made a few mistakes. Ive lost some friends. Every time I recall being worried about friendships or relationships I remember Lunchbox's words:
Make new friends and keep the old
Some are silver, the others gold
Ive hurt some of those that mattered most to me. Ive gone though some things that affected my judgment and decisions. I haven't been a friend to those friends that needed me during their trying times. I hope you can understand that I'm here for ya, Oscar. This vacation is going to be a good one. Stress free and finally a true vacation.
On the only down note, I'm sick of seeing my name thrown around with negativity. That would improve my days if that wouldnt happen so much. |
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| "Time takes its toll on us; this changes everything" |
[Nov. 24th, 2007|02:14 pm] |
This is the last day of my vacation in Alabama. Looking at calender, I realize Ill be back in 2 weeks. I hope everything works out.
My last entry was a low point. Hopefully, those will continue to come later and later. After various dreams during my slumber, I awoke wishing for things to go back. Sometimes, life doesnt allow it. I have a lot of things to go through in this life. Undoubtedly I'll have to experience her with someone else. That will undoubtedly suck. It happens though. She'll have to experience me with someone else eventually. Life goes on. I think this will be last entry concerning her. I rarely write of her anymore though.
I really need to hit these books. I havent read in like 2 months. I cannot flunk outta college. My finals are all the determining factor for each class.
Govt- Final- 33%
Mass Media- Presentation-30% Final- 25%
Astronomy- Test 4+Final= 50%
Pre-Cal- Test 4 +Final= Whether I get a D or a B.
College is hard. Its true. Its just so final, is all. |
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| "And you cannot run or ever, ever escape" |
[Nov. 24th, 2007|02:15 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Alabama | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  cold | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | positive tension- bloc party | ] |
Mingle. Date. Officially Date. Complicate. Fight. Make Up. Repeat. Fight. Break Up. Hate. Mingle With Others. Date Others. Make Up. Talk. Meet Up. Fight. Ignore. Forget.
If anyone knows anything about me, it's that I care too much. I have enough care to support a small town. I however, went through a relationship and breakup and still am recovering from the obsession I built up for this girl Valerie. The attraction, referred to as obsession for lack of a better term and the fact that I loved her, fucked me up after the break up. My first semester in college was rough, in part to a new environment, new life, but also due to the looming thought of wanting her back. Ive never experienced a break up where I was the "breakup-ee" not the "breakup-er". Im used to having control of the situation, at least in relationships. Possibly its a male thing. Probably it's a Zack thing. I got too close. I fell too hard. I'm still reaping the consequences. I spoke too much of this ill-fated situation that now I think it's been a good 2 months since I mentioned anything of feelings towards Valerie or the like. I may speak to close friends but for about 2 months Ive done my best to forget and move on. I think it's helped. I'm going to continue to forget and move on. I have to put her behind me. Friendship wise, we were/are best friends. Relationships do ruin most friendships. But really, if given a chance to have a relationship at expense of a good friendship, Ill always choice the first over the latter. Theres no logic behind it. Its just something I would do.
I really haven't dealt with this kind of thing. Maybe its something most people deal with in mature relationships. I don't really hold our relationship as a very mature relationship, so it's probably something just I had to deal with for my specific situation. Whatever the case may be, I hate the situation. I wish things were different. But thats why we don't have things sometimes. So we can wish for them. |
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| "Listen well, will you marry me?" |
[Nov. 22nd, 2007|11:05 am] |
I haven't had a real true heartfelt blog ever since the creation of this new livejournal. Whether for fear of criticism, or possibly the "next day doubt" I found ever so common after an entry of complaints or an entry of immaturity. Then yesterday, after dealing with a crisis situation I think as best I humanly could I realized "What is maturity?". I honestly feel that most individuals have the ability to be a mature person but in reality, who wants to constantly be mature? So many teenagers wish to be considered older. So many younger children wish to achieve older age for hopes of driving or getting a job. So many girls attempt to act like adults and wish to date "older mature men". Has the thought of "maturity" plagued our generation where we cannot decipher age and experience against maturity?
In all honesty, as we grow old we do mature and understand things more clearly, but where is our peak? Perhaps its the fact that I feel my parents and relatives are mature but not to the point it affects their lives. My father may be organized, commanding and professional due to his job but he still can joke and goof off. My mother was able to overcome a divorce, and build a new family but yet me and her relate on so many issues, its almost like she's my age.
I think the issue I'm speaking of is that so many of my friends attempt to reassure that they are mature and the real deal. Who cares? Our lives are for us. What we do affects others but ultimately, what we do is our business. Life is the only thing you'll do that matters, because it encompasses everything.
I'm not the best writer and I'm not trying to preach on a pulpit my beliefs on this subject. It's simply something I thought about yesterday. On a much happier note, I hope everyone enjoys their thanksgiving day. Us southern people eat their dinner for lunch and eat leftovers for dinner. Thus, in about 2 hours Ill be enjoying food. |
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| "You are listening to the heartbeat of the sage" |
[Nov. 19th, 2007|02:13 am] |
I had a day today. One of those days you forget.
Except I did get to talk to my cousin Jacob, who I hope to see more throughout this week and through my x-mas break.
It's days like this I miss companionship.
My brothers got his Wii with all the 64 d/l'd games. Im convincing him to buy Strikers with his extra money. Hopefully he'll agree. I cant wait until Brawl comes out now, knowing I can play it in Alabama.
I miss my friends but I know last time the main factor I left Alabama was Valerie. And now, shes not a factor. Im enjoying my vacation so much.
Shout to mah dawg Eric though, needing a weekend dosage of that kid.
Sorry this livejournal is poorly written but it happens you know. Everything cant be beautiful or tv-show like. Life is full of too much time. |
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